What inspired me to get up today? Well, that's a hard question to answer. I could say my children - but I have to get up every day for them no matter how I'm feeling. What truly inspired me today was the eagerness to grow. I feel like my life is just a failure. I have tried so many things to get up in life and it just doesn't work. I opened an online store - but lots of merchandise - didn't sell - opened a YouTube channel - with barely any views - I thought I was going to make it in TikTok and that way I would promote my products - somebody got super jealous that my page was growing and decided to report for no reason. I didn't have any adult content that would harm anyone - or content that children can't watch - it was all PG 13. I am feeling down and depressed - everything I try just doesn't work - what am I doing wrong? Why it is so easy for other people and not for me? I have taken marketing courses and followed every step of great marketing and nothing.
Why don't you get a real job you might say. I have had real "jobs". When my baby was diagnosed with hydrocephalus - I stopped working. Well, I didn't stop - they fired me, why? because I was absent a lot of times because I was in the hospital with my baby. I understand the reason - that last day when I went he said: Hey we think is best that you stay home taking care of your son, and since then, I have devoted my life to taking care of my son, and while doing that I have tried everything to bring money home. I have also applied to remote positions - but no luck.
I don't really have friends - for being a good friend and opening that door of my house to the wrong people I decided not to believe in that "Friends" - so this is my way to talk. Today I decided to open a blog and give my online shop another try. Hopefully I get results this time. My life has been so hard - people who know me don't know that because I'm not great at expressing my feelings. I just hold everything in - But I can't anymore - So this is my space to talk about my feelings, sadness, and happiness. Maybe I connect with someone going through the same and advise each other on what's best.
My other title: Benefits of working remotely:
well, for me, I get to be home and take care of my kids. Imagine if I get a job - I have to get a babysitter - in New York daycare is at least $600 weekly - which means that my paid check will be to paid babysitter. I don't have anyone to leave my kids with - my husband works all day and when he gets home he is super tired. He works hard. Don't get me wrong he is the provider of this home. I just want to have something of my own. Something that I don't have to depend on him. Something that I could say I created this - this is mine... Am I wrong for wanting that? Maybe it hasn't happened because I want it so badly. So today I decided that this is my second chance. This time I will get it.. I will work hard on it... I'll pray to god every day for it.
Thank you for reading me and your support. I would love to read your comments and opinions, advice counts too.
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